who am I? mothering {myself}, healing, and fear

I am finding myself further down the path of adulthood than I anticipated at this point in my life.

How am I 35?

I realize that newer moms look up to me, and I want to say to them, wait, what? I'm not the role model here. How did all this time pass? I still feel so new and green at this parenting thing. It just gets hard in different ways, not easier.

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