extra is the new minimum

I had a bunch of big goals and plans for this year, and instead, it's turned into a year of intense growth. I dunno about you - but for me, 2020 has demanded CHANGE from me in order to thrive - and oh, have we been thriving!

However - it's been made very clear to me that I need to create new habits to take excellent care of myself.

I dislocated my knee a week ago - and a similar thing had me on crutches less than two months prior!

Then, I was checking my message history, and realized that this is actually the THIRD injury I've had this year that, while minor, forced me to drop everything and REST. No exceptions. Full stop. 

Messages from Spirit usually show up in threes, and three injuries in one year definitely feels like the ancestors are YELLING at me.

Okay, okay. It's time to REALLY listen to my body. No shortcuts, no faking it.

It's time to actually prioritize my REST, my emotional and mental wellbeing, my nutrition, my sleep habits - and not least of all, my JOY. 

For too long, I've let the needs and feelings of others take precedence, and if I am honest with myself...it's been slowly destroying me. 

I chose THIS as a motto for 2020, way back in January:

EXTRA IS THE NEW MINIMUM

I borrowed it from the inspirational (and intensely pink + glittery) Gala Darling on Instagram.

@galadarling is an entire vibe

That phrase really speaks to me.

For way too much of my life, I've heard variations of the theme...

"You're too much, Krystal." 

Back in the day, people didn't use the word "extra" the way it's used now...but that was constantly the message I got from others in my world.

The things I want, my standards for how I want to live, play, be treated...EXTRA.

People would criticize me for wanting to upgrade my life, and they'd say to me,

'Why can't you just settle for what you get?'

Ah. There's the root of it..

They wanted to think of me as ungrateful...and without even realizing it, I somehow accepted their judgment of me.

Gross…!

I declare that I'm done with "just enough", I'm done with workarounds, sloppy boundaries, and letting things slide to placate others. 
 

EXTRA IS MY NEW MINIMUM.

For right now, 'extra' means having radical faith in myself while I rest, heal, and reconnect with what brings me joy. 

I hope this year has brought you blessings alongside the intensity.

Clarity can be painful, but it's also a great vantage point from which to create new beginnings. 

If you've felt like hardship has really gotten to you this year, please know that it's worth it to keep going.

Being brave and persevering in the face of challenges is a special kind of bad-assery, and I love that about you. 

Sending you abundant clarity, consciousness upgrades, and so much love...